Drama. Chaos. Upheaval. We struggle with these issues in our life every day. We see our friends bickering, our co-workers cheating, our superiors ignoring their duties. We see laws broken and justice ignored. No matter what we do, we always seem to see some disruption around us. Sometimes it nudges its way into our personal … Continue reading Everything is falling apart and it sucks.
I suck at having faith. I joke to myself that I am one step away from being an atheist; if it's not the gods of Egypt, it's no gods at all. I disguise the seriousness of that feeling by calling it a joke -- but it's 100% truth. I don't know how I got to … Continue reading Doubt, existential crises, and choosing faith.
I remember being new to Kemetic Orthodoxy. Everything felt exhilarating. For the first time in my life I had a direct line to communicate with the gods. I felt when They were near me keenly, as vividly as I felt any human presence. I could hear Them speaking when I calmed my body and centered … Continue reading The crash.
Once upon a time, the purpose of this blog was to write about my personal experiences with the gods. After a while, I sort of veered away from that and tried to write about these vast, sweeping concepts that would possibly be useful -- in my mind -- to other people who might be curious … Continue reading Share the love.
I don't know where to start. That's my least favorite part of picking blogging back up after a long hiatus -- I have no idea what to say. I'm married now, though, so that's awesome. Most of my lack of concentration lately has come from the fact that wedding planning is incredibly distracting and all … Continue reading Happy (secular) New Year
Tonight, the shrines are lovely. Kneeling before the gods, the candles are flickering and the shrine is beautiful beyond belief. And yet - I feel nothing. Silence surrounds me. I press my forehead to the floor, as though bowing more deeply before Their altar can recharge my god-phone. Only the echoes of my own prayers … Continue reading Can You hear me now?
Crises of faith can be funny. You can declare they're over, and that you believe in God again with your whole heart. Your friends will pat you on the back (maybe metaphorically, if you're long-distance). You feel accomplished, and somehow more adult - maybe surviving a Dark Night of the Soul with your faith intact … Continue reading Not there yet.