Somehow, suddenly, I looked up and most of October had passed without a peep from me. Whoops. Unfortunately, work and family became the main demands in my life for a little while. But things are tentatively easing up a bit, so here I am, tiptoing back to the good ol’ blogosphere.
Recall, if you will, the trepidation with which I wrote about taking a three-day break from my official W’ab rituals. Over the last two months, I have been able to do only the bare minimum of my priestly duties. It feels absolutely horrid to write that. Totally miserable. I felt so accomplished last year, being so dedicated to my gods and to Their service. Now I am stuck in limbo. I have been working to cover for an injured person, had a guest staying in the shrine room 3 nights a week ( and still do ) and it has simply not been possible to tend the shrine as regularly as I would prefer.
And in spite of all that – even though I am removed from my Work and from my sacred space – I feel totally connected. I hear Them, I feel Them around me. They give me simple jobs, which don’t require ritual purity. They praise the Work I can do, without scolding me for being away. It has been hard, and I pray that my return to full-time service is sooner rather than later, but I feel blessed by Their patience, and by the fullness of my spirituality in the absence of ritual service.
carrying their light 
We are our own worst critics sometimes, huh? I know what you mean about being in limbo…my husband and I are staying with friends while we look for a place of our own. I hadn’t even started a regular practice, so I can imagine that it must be even more frustrating being in your situation!
It can be remarkably frustrating. It feels like my hands are tied, almost literally, because I can see the shrine but can’t use it. *sigh* but slowly more time is made. I wish you luck in finding a place of your own to build your own practice!