My aspirations and goals have changed so drastically since I started doing this meme. I had some thoughts – “to become an Imakhu”, “to open a temple to my gods”, “to dedicate my life to Their service”.
I hope that some day, I will have a space for the gods, where I can serve Them and Their people. I hope that I will be able to carry Their work through the world, as a healer, as a diviner, and as a conduit for Their love.
I hope that some day, I will be able to say to someone “I am Kemetic Orthodox”, and be treated with respect and equal fellowship – without the baggage of suspicion and disdain.
I hope that some day, I will be confident in my spiritual identity, unafraid of criticism or rebuke for the path I follow. I hope that I will be able to participate in interfaith dialogue, in Pagan Pride events, in pluralistic rituals and prayers. I hope that my faith will become a source of wisdom and hope in my daily doings, rather than something I struggle to conceal.
I hope that some day, I will speak for the ancestors, the Akhu, the Blessed Dead shining in the arms of Nut. I will give them recognition among the living, and call the living to remember them often with love. I hope I can bring their needs – the need to be remembered, the need to be cared for and spoken to – to the attention of their children.
Some day, I will honor the gods by making all of these things come into being.
Thus concludes the 30 Episodes of Spirituality meme, which I started last year in October. I’ll be writing up a page with all of the episodes and linking to it up top as I have time. This has been an awesome exercise in writing about my beliefs, and an awesome exercise in writing often. Thanks to all who have been reading! Now to find even more awesome things to post about…
2 thoughts on “Episode 30: My aspirations and goals.”
“I hope that some day, I will be able to say to someone “I am Kemetic Orthodox”, and be treated with respect and equal fellowship – without the baggage of suspicion and disdain.”
If you’re talking about reactions from other Kemetics, I’d say that House members need to be “out there,” showing that they are reasonable, intelligent people dedicated to the Netjeru. They don’t need to rush to squash every rumor, or chant “Hemet is perfect,” but just being out there as a person living in Ma’at who proudly says “I am Kemetic Orthodox” goes a long way. Having a thoughtful blog helps as well!
I’ve been told “I have no interest whatsoever in talking to outsiders” by more than a few members. That’s just sad. I know I would never have taken the intro class if I hadn’t accidentally found out that someone I know is a member. She is not a person who would be involved in something so stupid and horrible.
I have heard from several “indies” who have been impressed with “Tamara” posting on the KIN forum. So I think there is hope for this.
I think it is certainly true that the only way to create a positive image of Kemetic Orthodoxy is to have members be visible. That is one of the reasons I try to blog and at least be somewhat involved in Interfaith movements. I think there will always be people who prefer to keep to themselves, and that’s really their prerogative, as long as there are also some folks who can stand up and represent our community.
I do think the KIN is a huge step towards making this dream a reality. It has gotten exponentially better since I first joined the House! So it isn’t like the House is totally shunned at this point. There was a time when it felt depressingly like that, though that could have been my own youthfully confused perceptions. 🙂