Well, it’s summer. Summer should theoretically mean downtime, but right now it seems to mean “massive physical, psychological, emotional and spiritual drain”. I haven’t had time to even think about Senut, let alone making offerings. I ran out of money this spring, and that sucked. So what do I do? I’m constantly drawn to honoring my gods, but I’m broke and constantly busy with work, or with new responsibilities to a student organization. When I’m not working or thinking about working or otherwise busy with my life, I’m far too tired to even think about Senut or offerings. But I still try to find some way to honor Them.
I’ve been trying to offer my meals to Them, and to whichever deity is on my mind at the time. I try to reflect on Them at appropriate moments, and I pray at least twice daily – usually before bed, and one other time. I don’t do anything fancy – no lighting of candles, no bowing and scraping – just simple greeting, thanksgiving, and supplication (my Catholic school religion classes are showing – there’s prayers of praise, thanksgiving, supplication…).
As silly as it sounds, all that is hard in and of itself. When I’m trying to be a thousand places at once, it’s not easy to remember to stop before a meal, or turn my thoughts to them before passing out exhausted. It just takes momentum. Hopefully soon that momentum picks up enough so that I can work on getting back into doing Senut regularly again. We shall see.
carrying their light 